Sunday, December 15, 2013
Friday, December 13, 2013
Daddy doesn't talk much about his emotions. He is a sensitive person. Very much so. Just that he isn't emotional. He manages his feelings is best way to put it.
A few weeks ago when we were in a bit of a heated discussion, I told him, "Whatever gets you through the day!"
His response, "Thinking about you."
He is definitely romantic and sensitive. He has a way to disarm me when I'm upset. Now though... I pray for guidance how to offer him comfort. Wish I could make everything ok. I miss him and want to hold him. I know I need to be strong. He is so strong. Sometimes I start wondering does he even need me? Truth is, some of the strongest people, surround themselves with those who help build them up. I just want to be that for Him. Right now, supporting him and giving him space to handle his affairs is the best I can seem to do.
Love is worth whatever it takes.
Wednesday, December 11, 2013
One of the hardest things is knowing He is dealing with something painful or difficult and that there is not much at all I can do to help. I respect Daddy's privacy and won't discuss but in general he copes with a lot. And when something unexpected happens, He handles it like the amazing person he is. With calm and grace. All I can do is tell him I'm here for him. He doesn't get emotional and will deal with whatever life brings. Still, I know he has feelings and fears like everyone. Times like these, I wish I could take his struggles away. All I can do is be calm and strong for him. Silently supporting my daddy so he can tend to what he needs to tend to, is the best I can do. Wish I could do more but I know he just needs me to stay strong and let him handle things.
Sunday, December 8, 2013
I have noticed Daddy is intentional. He puts time and energy into what matters and doesn't get swayed by trivial issues. He is fine with saying no to things he doesn't have time for, or that would keep him from what is more important. It helps to follow his quiet lead, to say no to things that distract me from my purpose, which is to please him.
Right now, I would say on an average week, I please him about 75-80 percent of the time (not sure if He would agree!). I know 100 percent is an ideal, but I think I can get myself closer to 90. Pleasing Daddy just means I am focused on what matters: pretty sure all he wants from me is to be patient, calm, and strong like when he first met me.
Tuesday, December 3, 2013
We had a lovely evening. Once daddy learned I wasn't quite done with time of month, he just let us have a sweet movie night like a couple of high schoolers. Pretty sure I don't need to explain the wonderfulness of that. I thanked him. He just said, "Our pleasure."
Sweet night. Amazing man.
Monday, December 2, 2013
I acted up again and Daddy has been gracious enough to set aside time for us to spend quality time this evening. Pretty sure he knows no matter how upset I get, it stems from wanting to spend time.
Gonna wear a skirt and make sure house is clean and tidy. Looking forward to seeing my daddy and pleasing him, is almost as sweet as the actual thing, not quite though.
Wish everyone in my real life saw how he is with me: patient, understanding, loving. They would understand in a heartbeat why I'm stuck on him forever.
Now off to walk the pup and just focus mundane things to help stay relaxed.
Saturday, November 30, 2013
Took this on our first date a year and a half ago. A nice restaurant in town where he made me laugh hysterically throughout our meal. I was really into photographing everything back then. I like this picture because it represents for me how meeting each other was a new beginning. An open gate with greenery and sunlight, to reflect good things to come, just brings a smile to my heart.
I have a close family member struggling right now. I have had rough times in my life and surely not immune, yet to watch someone i love go through is hard. No reasoning with this person. I've probably driven my daddy close to crazy venting to Him about it.
Ultimately as unreligious as I am, found myself turning to my spiritual faith. I've believed in God since a little girl. I used to pray at night for my family, extended family, friends, teachers and the whole world. I was slightly OCD and anxious too, so never wanted to leave anyone out. Lol ;-)
God is present. And times when I am helpless to help as much as I wish I could, God calms the waters.
I tell my daddy he is my anchor. He is calm and patient. And he helps hold me steady. God calms the waters and my daddy is like a human version of that.
Father in heaven, daddy on earth. Lucky and blessed girl.
Friday, November 29, 2013
Well, that really made me think, cause even if he is anonymous and so no one would know I'm writing about him, I realized I still need to be careful and not write anything too personal about him.
So, I will just focus on my thoughts about him and us. But, not about his personal business.
Been going through some difficult times with my own family. He has been there throughout. Even when we had an argument, he always put it aside to give support when I needed. He seems to know when i'm being real and when just whining.
A part of me wishes he would let me tell you all about him. Because, some of those private things are also the most special parts of him. He is an amazing man, wonderful father and true gentleman. Guess you'll have to take my word for it, since I can't spill all the beans. ;-(
me: Yes to feel closer to you
Him: What if you like it more than in the vagina
me: Will probably hurt way too much to like it more
Him: Can stick with your deep wet vagina
me: Yes daddy.
me: i'm sorry i've caused so much trouble this year.
Him: Year not over yet.
Daddy and I have had a rocky road at first. Instead of pulling apart, it drew us closer. Sometimes we put up so many walls, that it does take some painful deconstructing, to get to the core of each other. We managed to do that, where I know we could have easily not gotten through, but somehow we did. I love him. Nothing I wouldn't do for him. And, just thankful every day that despite our struggles, we care about each other more.
He happens to be a gentlemanly Dom, and I'm a strong-willed sub. It works for us.